Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Heaven on Earth

I love my new blog background! A friend of mine sent it to me and said it was as though it was made for Avery. I couldn't agree more. She is my special angel and I am sure she is watching out and protecting all of us. I have been asked by many to post a pic of my pink hair, my special tribute to Avery. As my world is filled with minimal amounts of pink I thought I would put some in my hair as a constant reminder of the little angel girl I have waiting for me in heaven. Its a little piece of heaven on earth.

Not everyday is heaven on earth for me, there are days were my heart explodes with such emotion I can hardly think before my eyes are filled with tears. I sometimes feel my heart in my throat. Mother's Day was one of those days. I was really quite happy then I got a flood of sadness, then joy, then I was fine. That was kind of how it went all day long. I knew it was going to be that way, I was prepared, I accepted it and I was happy to be able to experience another process of the grief. But I had a special helper that day as well and it wasn't my wonderful children or husband, it was my Heavenly Father, who lead so many people to me that day. Whether it was a warm Happy Mother's Day hug from a great friend, a wonderful box of chocolate truffles and a card from my neighbor, a lovely post on Facebook from my teenage son, to a thoughtful friend who anonymously left the most beautiful story about Avery and a single rose or a visit to the cemetery with my husband and children. I am grateful for what is was, as it could have been worse seeing it was my first without my Avery in my arms.

To all you wonderful mothers remember our children are on loan to us from our Heavenly Father and are mission here is to raise them and prepare them for life so that they can someday live again with him. Do your best everyday with them, they will make you proud one day. Hope your Mother's Day was as lovely as you all are.


  1. Leah, I LOVE the hair! You look great with Pink! I know Avery loves it too. I'm glad you had a good Mother's Day. Your thoughts and feelings were very similar to mine! I'm glad to have you as such a great friend and to be able to lean on you! Thank you!

  2. Now I really love the pink too. its really very attractive. My Mother's Day was filled with the same feelings; Dave was extra special to me this year. Monday I had a melt down but I expect those days. I have been wearing alot of pink too.. isn't that funny we would do that together. I have seen alot of outpouring of love on my end too; some of the sweetest coming from people I would never expect; but then God certainly works thru people.
    Love, Mom xoxoxox

  3. Love the locks. Very well said. It is so amazing to see you accepting each day as it is and doing the best with it. You are inspiring.


  4. Love the pink in your hair. I have been wanting to do some purple in my hair in memory of Kamber. Her birth stone is an amathest.
    Sending Love,
    Jen (Angel Kamber's Mommy)
    From the angel Blog

  5. It was an absolute TREAT to visit with you and Steve on Monday!! We seriously felt like we had known you guys for a long time. I love the hair as well as your open attitude about life as it is moment to moment. Thank you sincerely for the heart jewelry. So fitting and I love it. Thank you so much! Let's meet up again sometime....maybe in St. George!!

  6. I too love the pink hair! Beautiful! I'm sure Mother's Day was difficult but special for you. Please let Steve know that his talk in church made me cry. It was beautiful, the poem he shared about moms was so true. I am thinking we need an actual girls night with some gals from the ward where we go out to dinner and a movie or something! Love ya!

  7. Leah you are so beautiful, I also love the pink hair and it really brings out your eyes. You are right to just feel the emotions every day and just go with them, that will help to heal. I'm so proud of you. Love to all.

  8. We love your pink hair and the necklace of Avery is daring.
    I can't begin to understand how you must feel and the flood of emotions that come and go with every waking moment. I know that we are very blessed to have children in our lives that create and change our lives forever. I have a special place for these little heart children in my life and I take each one of their journeys personally. I just wanted you to know that little Avery was on my mind...

    Mike Patton

  9. I totally dig the hair, you wear it well girl! I'll bet Avery loves it as well!!

  10. Nice hair!!! Great message. Thanks for the reminder!

  11. leah you look so good. i love the pink hair what a wonderful way to remeber avery.