Wednesday, May 6, 2009

Touched by an Angel

Yesterday I felt the need to go to the cemetery to just sit, be still and enjoy whatever it was that needed to be. It was a semi overcast day, a bit windy but still nice. I had an arrangement someone made for me to take to Avery's grave and last week the headstone was set so off I go for my first real visit. I had a truly amazing experience there, one I am sure I will never forget but wanted to document it anyway.

As most of you know, I am a sun lover, not fanatic just love the heat and sunshine whenever I can get it, which hasn't been much lately in Heber. I walk to the grave and its still a tad overcast, I am there for a few minutes and a ray of sunshine just embraces me with warmth, I look up to offer my gratitude, I relax on the green grass, looking up at the heavens and it begins to sprinkle on me, ever so lightly as if someone is crying. I sit with that for a moment and it stops literally in less than two minutes. I was crying and so where the heavens. I knew she was there but sometimes I am a slow learner. My family and I are making a small garden in our yard as atribute to Avery (along with my pink hair) and we are going to buy butterflies and lady bugs to release when its all complete. My boys think that is so cool. So I am still sitting there and I feel this hair down my shirt, I ignore it and then I feel it moving, can't ignore that anymore, so I look down and in my shirt is a ladybug. I looked up and said, "thank you thank you Avery for letting me know you are there, your ok and the confirmation that life is eternal. I was crying tears of joy but yet I felt as though I needed to share and be comforted by this experience. I was planning to go to my friends house but as I drove by my own home my husband's truck was there and he is never home at 2:30 in the afternooon. I went inside to find his loving arms, a perfect ending to a perfect experience.

This experience which I have been praying for over the past 8 weeks was all I wanted to validate my need to know Our Sweet Avery Ann was watching over us and waiting for our arrival someday. I know that this earthly life is only a short part of our journey but the confirmation I received made me believe it in my heart as well as my mind.

22 comments:

  1. Oh what a precious memory. All of those little tender mercies to let you know that she is still with you guys, just from afar. I have often wondered if Avery is here with us helping Grant along in the many moments he has stepped between our two worlds. She is with you and will always be. What a wonderful idea to plant a garden just for her. I can't wait to see the pictures!

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  2. Oh that is just so sweet! She was letting Mommy know things are just fine. You guys are so strong and give me such strength. Thank You for being who you are. That is a great idea for the garden. What a beautiful family. I love the picture of your children all together. Lots of Love!

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  3. BAWLING. Leah, that is so incredibly special. God is really mindful of us, isn't He? Thank you so much for sharing.

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  4. Such a beautiful moment...thanks for sharing.

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  5. I could picture you there as I read your blog, I could almost feel it. I truly believe the distance between the two worlds is very very short; if only we are mindful and sensitive to it. I believe when we open ourselves to the Spirit miracles happen in the forms of ladybugs, tears from heaven, and hearts in the form of rocks. :) I love you my sweet daughter; You and your wonderful family have taught me well what the power of love can really do. Love, Mom xoxooxoxoxoxoox

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  6. What a neat experience! You will always remember that! Oh, and I LOVE your pink hair by the way!
    Melissa

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  7. Oh, Leah, what a sweet unforgettable experience. I'm so glad you had it! You truly needed it and I'm glad Avery came to visit you. What a great testimony builder to all! Thank you for sharing!
    By the way, I want to see photos of the headstone and your pink hair!!! POST POST!! :)

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  8. Leah thank you for sharing your experience and yes you will always be connected to sweet Avery. I remember when Mom passed, how we went to Greely Park and had a picnic. Cheyenne was 2 and I took a picture of her walking around the flowers. When I developed the picture there was an image in the trees and a light shinning down on her. I just knew Mom will always be with us. I love you I'm so proud of the strength you have. Yes please send pictures of the headstone and your pink hair :}

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  9. Yes... Pink hair pictures.... Pink Hair Pictures...

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  10. Just beautiful. I would love to meet you. I live in PC. Lucy's is my little pink angel too. Avery is just beautiful. I'm so sorry we have to endure this...but somehow we can.

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  11. I am so so grateful you had that experience. It is those experiences that keep us going. I know it's not the same, but when my grandma died a year ago, it was so sudden and I didn't get to say goodbye. Several times though I have seen her in my dreams...she has come to me as an angel, as a spirit and it gives me so much peace because then I KNOW she is not far, she is there, she is watching and she loves me just as Avery is with all of you. Love you my dear friend. Yes, lets get together. We are going to disney land on the 16th and will be back the 22nd or 23rd, lets plan something after that. I am here if you need me! So glad Avery let you know she 'sthere and loves you!

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  12. I just love that story. That is so wonderful! I just mentioned you in my latest blog post. I hope that's okay!!

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  13. Beautiful...I can only imagine the calm you must have felt

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  14. Thanks so much for sharing that. It's the perfect testimony that the Lord knows what we need. I know that is true.

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  15. Thank you so much for sharing such a sweet and spiritual experience. We send our love.

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  16. Thank you so much for sharing such a sweet, heaven sent experience. What a tender mercy this experience is for you, you and your family so deserve it.

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  17. What beautiful tender mercies...wow! Always look for them...they are there. Those tender mercies so help us through our trials and are definitely gifts from heaven made just for us.

    Love you!
    Jackie

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  18. My name is Heidi. I am Shannon Hoffman's cousin. She mentioned you before. I just saw your blog on her post. I am friends with Liz (angel Jake) and Heidi (angel Jersey). I saw their blogs on yours. I am guessing you are one of the mom's they visited with in Utah :) I am sooo sorry for your loss. My son Ethan is getting ready for the Glenn in a few weeks. He is doing well, but has had several complications along the way. He also had the fluid on his lungs in utero. Too many appointments, but I loved seeing him in all the ultrasounds.
    Take care-
    Heidi Skidmore

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  19. What an amazing and beautiful experience to have been able to have. I can't but think that Avery is communicating her love to you.
    (HUGS)

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  20. Leah, you truly inspire me. Thanks for always lifting me, you are amazing! The love of the Lord is something amazing, His tender mercies are real and so individual and Avery misses you too!

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  21. I am sitting here crying my eyes out. You are an inspiration

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  22. What a neat experience! Of course your sweet girl is watching over you, thinking of you always. I want to see a picture of the pink hair and the headstone! Maybe we should all follow Heidi's example?!!!

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