Sunday, March 8, 2009

As we embark on our journey tomorrow!

I can't believe it is finally here, its bittersweet! I am so excited to meet my baby girl, yet I am scared of all the unknowns.

I feel at peace, I feel strong, I feel energized, I feel humble, I feel I can do this and whatever is to be will be! I struggle with the lack of control I have over this situation but I have faith that I will be taken care! I can't explain my peace and strength but I know its not from me! I am just living and my needs are always met.....I hope and pray for this feeling to cross over to my dear husband as I think he is taking this a lot harder than I am.

I am so humbled by the love and support that I have felt from so many of you, thank you, thank you, thank you! You all ask what can I do for you....what we need most right now is for you to PRAY, PRAY, PRAY!

Last week was a tough one but we made it through and we will make it through this week as well. We will take each day one at a time, maybe last week was Heavenly Fathers test for us, to see how we would handle all that he is about to give us...(See honey, last week was just a test for us to see how much we really can handle!)

Once again, I am grateful.....We got our trailer out of the snow and mud, thanks to my father and brother in laws, who got it out for us on Wednesday. The boys are on the mend from being sick! I didn't get sick! My mom arrived safely! I only have one day left of being pregnant! My Dr. said the fluid is not visible still, I am dilated more than 2 cm and 50% effaced, so I am ready to be induced. I was hoping to go on my own but its not in my control apparently! For all this, I am grateful!

I have been asked by so many of you about visiting, calls, updates, etc. Here is the plan right now....If I can update the blog myself I will, otherwise my mom will do it for me after we call her to let her know that Avery arrived and any other information we have at the time. As soon as I get access to an Internet connection, I will update with any information. I know that so many of you are anxious and want to know whats going on, so we will be as diligent as we can to update fast.

I am not sure about visitors just yet, we will have to wait and see once she is there what we can anticipate in that dept. but, will post that as well. I do know that you can bring your computer into the hospital rooms and have Internet service. So with that, email probably will be the quietest and easiest way to communicate with me. My email is hallowsboys@gmail.com, yes I know that I will have to change that soon, but for now that is the best way to reach me. I also have a skype account and my screen name is hallowsfam so if you want to see or talk to me use that account and we can use the web cam....I got that so my boys can see their sister, as they will NOT allow children under 14 in the intensive care units until RSV season is done. Understandable!

I have to get off this computer, as my back is a bit sore now! But I just want to close and let you know that I know I will not be alone in this journey, nor have I ever been. Thank you Heavenly Father for the undeniable strength, faith, comfort, peace and hope that you have offered me every second of the way! I know there are lessons to learn from the trials we are given and if I have learned one thing so far, it is that my testimony of a divine power is real and when you need him most, he is there! His outstretched hand will guide you and let you know you are never alone, EVER!

22 comments:

  1. I can't wait to meet your sweet Avery. Good luck with the delivery. I truly admire your strength and testimony. My prayers will be with you and your family.

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  2. Our family will be thinking of your family and praying for all of you tomorrow. You sound like you are in a very good place right now. We love you!

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  3. Leah,
    I have been quietly following your blog and praying for your little Avery. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family tommorow. I truly believe that God has listened to the many prayers that have been sent on her behalf and all will be well.
    Geeg
    (Julie's Mom)

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  4. Good luck with your L&D tomorrow. I will be praying that you and Avery both do the best that you possibly can. Can't wait to that precious little one. You both will be in my constant thoughts tomorrow.

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  5. Leah,
    Tomorrow will be one of the choice experiences of your life. I wish I could wrap my arms around you. Just think of my little, chubby McKay and know that hope is real and miracles do happen. We love you and will be praying our hardest all goes as planned this week.

    Much love,
    Mindi

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  6. Leah, Jenn VenderLinden gave me your blog address. I wanted to wish you the best of luck tomorrow with the delivery of your sweet little baby. I will keep your family in my prayers. My cousin Heidi recently gave birth a few weeks ago to a little boy with a similar situation. Her blog address is http://crazyskids.blogspot.com/ They have been strengthened by the comfort of the spirit and their little boy is doing well. Good luck!
    Shannan Hoffman

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  7. Good Luck tomorrow!
    Melissa - IHH

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  8. Leah, Just a little note to let you know you will be in my thoughts and prayer's. I can't wait to see your precious baby girl!
    Love ya,
    Shallon

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  9. Leah, your strength amazes me - you are a testimony of the power and peace the Lord gives us in times of great need. I wish for that peace to be upon you and your whole family in the weeks to come. You are in our constant thoughts and prayers. I will be in touch with the NICU tomorrow to get updated - I promise your baby will be in the best of care there. Love, Lisa

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  10. Thinking of your family and hoping for many miracles for your sweet Avery.

    Hugs & Prayers,
    Christina from IHH
    Jacob's Momma

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  11. Leah, I am so excited for you and your family. To finally meet little Avery. Your testimony, strength, and postive thinking has been a blessing in my life. You are a amazing woman and I am blessed to call you my friend. You are in our thought and prayers always.

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  12. Our thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family. We are so excited for you to meet little Avery.

    Hugs,
    Mike & Family
    IHH-VP

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  13. steve and leah,
    Good luck with everything tomarrow. Our thoughts and prayers are with your family.
    Natalie

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  14. oh so exciting! I pray all goes well and i really hope to see you guys before we leave for the summer to new york the end of aprit

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  15. Leah and Steave ,My heart and prayars are with you and your family.Hope all guys well..
    This is a saying by C.Dickens it one of my favorites .(It is not a slight thing
    when they who are so fresh from God love us.).
    JAMIE EGBERT

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  16. Good luck tomorrow, i am excited for you but at the same time nervous for you as well! I look forward to meeting you in the next couple of weeks! Take care. Mindi Dixon

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  17. GOOD LUCK!!! We will give you guys a call/email on Thursday or Friday when they decide to check me again. Prayers are with you!!!

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  18. Corinne GamangassoMarch 9, 2009 at 8:15 PM

    Hi Leah,
    I know your situation and the trials I have gone through are not the same...But I do understand the feeling of peace that you are talking about. I know Heavenly Father will be there for you, and no matter what the outcome is...he WILL give you the strength to get through. I also think I might understand what you are talking about with Steve...Men handle things so different that women do.
    Leah...I know you have a lot of support, but if you ever want to talk...I would love to listen. Sometimes you will want to talk, other times just left alone. I believe in miracles, and I am praying for one for your family!
    Good Luck tomorrow!

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  19. Leah and Steve; I am with you every step of the way; the boys will be just fine and I will enjoy every minute with them.

    I LOVE YOU BOTH VERY MUCH

    LOVE, MOM

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  20. Hey girl,

    I am so there for you. You know that. I am so glad that I am a part of your life. You inspire me. I know how strong you are and how great you are going to do. My thoughts and prayers are with you continually. You and your family are so loved. Avery is so blessed to have you as her mother.

    Love, Jackie

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  21. Steve and Leah,

    We just wanted to let you know that we are thinking of you and wish you all of the best today. Our thought and prayers are with you, and we know that you and your family will be watched over and blessed at this time. You guys have been such a great inspiration to us. We will keep in touch. We are so excited to meet your sweet little Avery.

    Love,
    Mike & Suzy & kids

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  22. I will be thinking of you all day and saying prayers for you and Avery, each day has been challenging for you, but with your strength I just knew you would be just fine. I love you and can't wait to see some pictures soon.

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